30 things to do before 30

Saw this list somewhere, found it interesting and thought it was a good idea... Here's my own list, in no particular  order, some of which i have accomplished by the way! ;-)  

1. Up and go to some country alone
2. Fall in love ( the butterflies in my tummy kind)
3. Get a dog
4. Cut my hair
5. Colour my hair
6. Have a baby/ Be pregnant (Girl, preferrably :D)
7. Learn a language (Spanish maybe)
8. Learn how to play a musical instrument
9. Learn a sport ( Lawn Tennis maybe)
10. Learn Salsa
11. Learn Ibo & Calabar dishes ( They are the way to a man's heart, for real!)
12. Get a brand new car 
13. Get married
14. Start a business
15. Leave home
16. Buy a property
17. Take it to the extreme ( it being anything,lol)
18. Flirt with a stranger ( Maybe share a kiss)
19. Find myself
20. Know who my friends are
21. Start a business
22. Co-habit (i wish!)
23. French-Kiss in public/broad daylight/not on my wedding day (never done that cos i'm shy like that, sigh!)
24. Visit Nairobi
25. Visit Seychelles
26. Throw a slumber party
27. Have a Master's degree
28. Register at a gym ( fasting and prayer needed for this!)
29. Actually wear/use the sexy bikini i have tried a million times!
30. Have sex on a plane (hehehe!)

If i can do all of these before 30 (which is in 18months by the way), then turning 30 won't be so bad afterall...hehehe!

Sudden Halt

Been a while...

Imagine travelling to say Ibadan and the road's been so free, there really hasn't been any reason to bring the car to a halt...

And then from no where, you see a human being (like yourself) run into the road...what happens?

Now imagine the same scenario with a lot of police checkpoints (about 7 so far)...so you've been moving at a somewhat slow pace...before this suicidal being runs into the road?

Which will more likely cause a major accident?

Well...

The first happened to me, not on the road...but in my heart! My 'supposedly' happy relationship came to a sudden halt!

Effect: Numbness!!!

In my last post I wrote about how I'm already thinking wedding colours...in this, I'm back at 1!

Reason: Out of no where, he claims his mum's 'white-garment' affiliates don't approve of 'us' as the 'road' may not be 'smooth'!

That doesn't hurt as much as his 'confusion' and need for 'space' to think about if he wants to take the 'risk'!'Risk' here being me! Whew!

It's been almost three(3) weeks and I haven't heard a word (not a call,sms or bbm), though I can tell he's still alive from his frequent bb updates. I have ended 'that' in my heart, I definitely don't want to be a 'risk' that was taken!

Anyways, that's that...

Question now is 'when will I ever get out of this happiness-pain cycle?', if I do, will I be the same? As it is, all I feel is emptiness and numbness...and sometimes anger!

I guess sudden accidents have the worst impacts afterall...

Ciao

Smitten!

Yes o! I, Miss 'i have had too many heartbreaks to be heartbroken or crazy in love' is in love...the beauty of this is it feels just right...Like I'm finally home (I'm serious)! I haven't felt this much peace with any guy before...
 So tonight, he asked me what my future plans are (sounded to me like :'will you marry me?')....and we talked at length...:D
I am happy....!!!
Now waiting patiently for 'the' question...
Anyways, it's not a perfect 'scenario'...but it's just 'right'...(perfect scares me)...
And then this night he goes :'Babe....I'm falling for you!...you are my sweetheart *hugs*'
Uhm...all the pain in  my body disappeared (i was getting ill just before, used drugs sef)...
So, yes i have started thinking 'wedding colours'....because i strongly believe that 'THIS IS IT'!
Wish me luck!x

2011...done!!!

Whew!!!
It's been a crazy, lifechanging, bumpy, emotional year for me....wow!

I started 2011 with hopes for....a boo, more money, better relationship with God, a hotter & fit bod(E!'s way of saying 'body',lol!)...that's all i remember sha!

So, it's the 29th of December, and what can i say...finally got me a boo (this month o!), hmmm God n I...it will be better...money? i got some and more, for real!....body? hmmm lost weight due to am intense stay at the hospital...asides that, still trying to start skipping o, :-(...there is hope sha!

Deaths...sigh! a lot of young people died this year (2 being my friends' siblings)....was so bad that i made a conscious effort to stop getting depressed when i heard of more deaths...God knows best sha!

Births..yes! got me a niece(after almost 6years of asking...God did it, miraculously!) and....guess.......a GODDAUGHTER...my best friend gave birth to a beautiful bundle of joy in October (a week after my birthday, i wish she came on my birthday sha)...etc...(ofcourse, there were other children na!)

Friends...my 1st job change brought with it new friends...some acquaintances who appeared as friends (trust me to dive then regret) and some friends who started off as 'haters', lol!one in particular who for some reason(i later understood) was so cold to me, but we ended up being really cool,yay!......towards the end of my stay at that company though, i  met someone else(a babe)..Kehinde>>another me, for real! We are sooo alike and we just clicked! Unfortunately, i left the company few weeks after she joined...She is one of the very few girls i actually connected with...

Jobs...at the beginning of the year, i was depressed and unhappy...by May, there was a turnaround, got a new job...and then come October, i got an offer from the BEST ad agency in Naij....(take a wild guess,lol!)...ofcourse, i took it (it was the 2nd time of asking)...and i resumed in December (more pay too,lol!)...Pretty challenging and a lil bit scary...but that's what makes me tick anyways....I made the right decision...

Perfumes...so my change in 'financial' status allowed me to indulge myself more (I'm a perfume freak)...started the year with my Believe (Britney Spears)...that spilled in from 2010...and the Bvlgari rose Essentielle came into my life, next came YSL's Cinema (somewhere around the time i got my Estee Lauder's Beyond Paradise), then Ricci Ricci by Nina Ricci...then uhm...i really have lost track...Cerrutti 1881...Marc Jacob's Daisy Eau so fresh...DKNY's Be Delicious...Lolita Lempicka...okayy seriously....i cannot name all...hehehe! but my most recent is Love Chole...a xmas gift from Dami...(my only brother) :D
I could go and on about perfumes...but this is about 2011 not perfumes! lol!

Bags...acquired a few...i absolutely love! same as shoes..not as much in the clothes department though...

All in all, God has been faithful!!!...I am thankful....

I'm going to put on  my dancing shoes on the 31st...and show Him how grateful i am...:D

x

Long Weekend Over :-(

It was indeed a loooog weekend, i wish Nigeria will have their democracy holiday every week...hehehe.

Neways, Highlights of my holiday: Reunion on Saturday, Euphoria on Sunday, Picnic on Monday...Sounds like i had fun abi?
Well, kinda! Reunion on saturday was uhm my fellowship from uni ( CLF), saw a lot of people i haven't seen in a while (except on facebook). It was ok sha, fine boiz showed up to ;-)
Euphoria was a worship concert on sunday, started @ 4pm, we got there around 5ish, Cobahms was there, it was uhm okaay, worship, everyone in the spirit and all. Truth is, i did not enjoy it at al, why? a lot of noise! the musical instruments were loud...sound effect was on point, but i have a thing for 'too loud' music. We left at 6ish, i had a terrible headache, had to use ibuprofen! That was that...I have accepted myself for who I am, too loud  and fastpaced music( gospel or otherwise) is just not me, gives me a headche. I enjoy it say once in a very blue moon, for a short period o,say 10minutes.
Picnic went well, church peeps, just played, ate and disappeared :-) ....There was a debate on who is worse at cheating and heartbreaking? Ladies or guys....I went for the ladies sha because even though guys cheat more, ladies too could be horrible...and many times, catch the guy unawares...most ladies get the feeling when their boo starts cheating, just that a lot of us ignore it! Neways, this is another post on its own...maybe later today, i'd be more elaborate on 'Cheating'!

Work happened in between (have a presentation tomorrow), and it's back to work again. This is my 3rd week here, so far, so good...fingers still crossed though!

Back to work!
x

Human Beings!

Had this funny experience today...some people are just there to get on your nerves...seems like the harder you try to not lose your temper, the more encounters you have with these agents of whatever...

Anyways, came across one today. I've been trying to work on my temper, because i tend to react when i'm angry and i hate myself afterwards.

So, this night, i took my lil sis to the hospital for injections (she has malaria and a throat infection), and some guy decides he wants to tell me how not to park, i ignore him, then i hear the insult of my life. Guy begins to rain curses at me, i was so upset, i did not say a word, i just sat right there waiting for my sis.
Neways, the guy went on and on till I reacted... I wouldn't say i failed sha, cos i did not react immediately and I kind of handled it better than i normally would have.
Total silence would have been better though, but, I am getting there. With God on my side, I am going to be a better person, by fire by force... By the way, my theme for this year is EVOLVE, so I am committed to evolving into a much better person- a person i would be proud of...

It's 4minutes till saturday, It's going to be a long weekend...
Just saw the movie 'Taken'...Nice movie...Time to sleep...nanyt! xxx

P.S: I need a boo, for real! Gets pretty lonely especially at weekends...no activity whatsoever to look forward to...I so look forward to getting into a serious relationship...I crave for love and to love..Enough mushiness, gotta go!

Fitting In...Standing out...Habits!

It's friday, yay! just got out of this meeting with my boss and colleagues...I feel sleepy! and a bit out of place still.
It's the end of week 2 at my new job, so far, so good. Settling in has been aii...Colleagues have been generally friendly, but i still feel like the 'new kid in school'... I guess it's inevitable sha that i feel like that.
Anyways, i also really want to be careful in fitting in. In as much as i want to stop being the 'new kid', i don't want to totally just blend in, cos i still need an objective view and understanding of my colleagues, especially since my role might come across as 'crossing territories' some times. I also want to be careful about not falling into habits i'm trying to drop, like talking a lot :D.
Yes, i talk a lot...sure blogging will help sha, imagine saying all of this to another human being ( Too many words).

Speaking of habits, i read it somewhere that if you do something continously for eight(8) days, it becomes a habit. I've been careful about talking a lot in the office and in general for almost 12days now( since i resumed last week), i pray it has become a habit o! Worked with our daily family devotion though, we have re-cultivated the habit, and it seems to have come to stay.Thank God for that...I have also cultivated the habit of saying a short prayer(devotional) when i resume work every morning....I pray that stays too, Amen!
So, it's 'drop one bad habit, gain at least one(1) new one for me!'....Let's see how it goes!

Enough rambling for now...ciao!